*SIGH*
Wow. Life. Boom. There it is.
After staring at my earthquake post for a while, I figured I should write something else. I love how the earthquake occurs and I fall off the face of the Earth....well, the face of the Rice Bowl anyways. But where to begin. So many things have been happening, but where in the world could I begin.
I'm learning quickly about all the drama that my life has been missing. Growing up in China, in the whole ex-pat community, you have have your drama, but its a different kind of drama than what most people have in the states. There is the whole boyfriend/girlfriend issue, but mainly that problem is that there are far too few people to choose from, and most of the people you might consider, you've actually known for far too long anyways. In the ex-pat community, if you have a bf/gf, chances are, your parents already know them and they already know their parents. Its a whole other can of worms here. I'm seeing it with my friend, who is bringing her boy home with her for Thanksgiving to meet the family. Oh boy. I think that whole situation is just every person's nightmare.
Here it is....
Girl, is hoping that daddy doesn't shoot the boy and that daddy will be nice, and civil, if at all possible. The boys may talk football, cars, whatever....as long as daddy plays nice. Hopefully everything goes smoothly and the family likes the boy.
Boy, praying that daddy doesn't shoot him, or castrate him in any way shape or form. Also praying that daddy doesn't run him over with the truck. Praying that mommy isn't going to hit on him or hit him over the head with a frying pan. Praying even harder that mommy and daddy don't decide to talk about sex during dinner, where they will, of course, stare hard and long at the boy with scrutinizing eyes.
Daddy, hoping that the shot gun will go off while cleaning it, in the direction of the boy that is de-flowering his little girl.
Mommy....God knows whats going on in her head.
So you get the picture. Everyone is tense and on edge. One of those fun days in life.
Back to the topic at hand though. DRAMA! There's a show that I used to watch, still do in fact. Felicity. Story about a girl leaving home for the first time to go to college far away from the parents. Hmmm....sound familiar? Oh yeah. All the drama that happens in that show....well, my life is feeling a little like that right now.
But the big thing is...I just realized that I'm 18. I'm and adult....as scary as that sounds. I can do all these things...adult things...But at the same time, I still feel like I'm 14. Its just so strange how you can just have a completely different life somewhere else. I should totally understand this because I've lived away from 'home' for so long and have had to move a fair amount. But, wow. Maybe its that that leaves me with the realization of it all. I recognize it.
I still can't wait to get home. I miss the food back home. I miss the kitchen, my favourite room. I miss being able to go in there and cook things for dinner when I feel like it....giving mum the heads up that I'm cooking, stay out. I miss the parents. I miss the bug. Every time I see pictures of him, he just looks so much older.
At the same time though, all my friend that stayed back home, they have nothing to do. I'm glad I ended up in college the first year. Boy, the drama or college and living in the States sure beats the heck out of being bored to death in China and listening to your parents bicker about how your life is worthless. And the weirdest thing is, I wanted to take the year off, and I have no regrets about not doing that. My friends? Their kicking themselves for not going away this year.
Besides....I'M IN HAWAII!!!!! I'm going tanning tomorrow with a girlfriend....in the middle of November....outside, where there is grass, and its sunny, and not snowing, and hot! Hot enough you can sweat. I'm really starting to like it here...despite the rain. And the Drama.
But hey, c'est la vie. I can live with Drama and Rain.
